A Little Something Taught

So...It has been a while... Hi...again. A lot has happened while I have been M.I.A. one of which being a fast that I was on. Anyone heard of the Daniel's Fast? Yeah, that one! 

I have done this fast corporately now for 4 years. With the background that I come from, I was always taught to do everything to the -T.  Because of this, I treated my fast the same way for years, which is great right? God must be so well please with a little soldier who can follow orders. I was seven different kinds of wrong. Not that God isn't pleased with His children following orders. Obedience is very important. It wasn't that God wasn't pleased with me. Honestly, I could see him sitting in Heaven shaking His head, with loving eyes saying "Oh my poor, sweet girl...When will she get it?" As if He was watching me like a toddler who was trying to figure the whole walking thing out.

During the fast, beyond everything else occurring, it was like God was pouring out massive amounts love over me. It took me a while to realize He was also trying to tell me something. I went to MORE (Ministry of Reconciliation & Evangelism) where my Mama Lynne, who is somewhat of my mentor, spoke about the fast. It was like God threw me in a tunnel with only His voice echoing through it with all of the words He tried to say before that I wasn't getting.

I had lost the purpose of the fast and the target in sight as well. I was too busy planning the proper meals for the family to eat and debating on what was ok and what wasn't and trying to do it by the book that I forgot I was doing it, not for or by the "law" but for the one who came to abolish the law. I, in fact, started making the fast an idol. I spent more time worrying about what i would eat than denying my flesh and replacing it with more of Him.

Once I came to that realization, not only was the fast easier, but things between God and I flowed better because I removed all of the clutter and stones that where blocking the way. He was able to work with me and it changed EVERYTHING! He reminded me why I was doing any of this, which is strictly because of a violent love for Him. A love that was violent enough to tear down any wall in the way, a love strong enough to carry me in my weakness, a love with enough endurance to hang on the cross until it was finished, a love sweet enough to quiet the noise of life and within myself to hear Him, a love violent enough to let nothing stand in the way, a love that God placed in me because He lives in me. I did it and do it for love.  It goes to show you that even it what seems so common and little to us, there can always be something taught that ends up being bigger than the life we know...big enough to change it. So I wonder, if we stepped back, what would we find in our lives that we are doing unto God while losing Him in the process?

So beast!
God is so good!

Blessings