Where He Meets You

When a broken calamity falls in the midst of peace's pathway
When sweet silence's dew is cut by the thirst of troubled, restless ground
When human tongues only dress the open wounds but never medicates
There's a voice that breaks these earthly chains & removes what keeps us bound
Where every head turns and fears seem to fall on deaf ears
Where tears don't seem to be caught & all that's left is gaping tears
When times immeasurable properties seem to neither touch or heal
Where the cracks of your heart remain unmended & the cool breath of lack & numbness is all you feel
There's a song in the night that brings forth the day & the sweet heat of the son's dawn touches your skin
Where there is brokenness to the point of desperation & clay still moist for use
There's a man's hands scarred from battle, meticulous & tender, to make you...your all things new
There's a heart pouring in love that chases after you

A Little Something Taught

So...It has been a while... Hi...again. A lot has happened while I have been M.I.A. one of which being a fast that I was on. Anyone heard of the Daniel's Fast? Yeah, that one! 

I have done this fast corporately now for 4 years. With the background that I come from, I was always taught to do everything to the -T.  Because of this, I treated my fast the same way for years, which is great right? God must be so well please with a little soldier who can follow orders. I was seven different kinds of wrong. Not that God isn't pleased with His children following orders. Obedience is very important. It wasn't that God wasn't pleased with me. Honestly, I could see him sitting in Heaven shaking His head, with loving eyes saying "Oh my poor, sweet girl...When will she get it?" As if He was watching me like a toddler who was trying to figure the whole walking thing out.

During the fast, beyond everything else occurring, it was like God was pouring out massive amounts love over me. It took me a while to realize He was also trying to tell me something. I went to MORE (Ministry of Reconciliation & Evangelism) where my Mama Lynne, who is somewhat of my mentor, spoke about the fast. It was like God threw me in a tunnel with only His voice echoing through it with all of the words He tried to say before that I wasn't getting.

I had lost the purpose of the fast and the target in sight as well. I was too busy planning the proper meals for the family to eat and debating on what was ok and what wasn't and trying to do it by the book that I forgot I was doing it, not for or by the "law" but for the one who came to abolish the law. I, in fact, started making the fast an idol. I spent more time worrying about what i would eat than denying my flesh and replacing it with more of Him.

Once I came to that realization, not only was the fast easier, but things between God and I flowed better because I removed all of the clutter and stones that where blocking the way. He was able to work with me and it changed EVERYTHING! He reminded me why I was doing any of this, which is strictly because of a violent love for Him. A love that was violent enough to tear down any wall in the way, a love strong enough to carry me in my weakness, a love with enough endurance to hang on the cross until it was finished, a love sweet enough to quiet the noise of life and within myself to hear Him, a love violent enough to let nothing stand in the way, a love that God placed in me because He lives in me. I did it and do it for love.  It goes to show you that even it what seems so common and little to us, there can always be something taught that ends up being bigger than the life we know...big enough to change it. So I wonder, if we stepped back, what would we find in our lives that we are doing unto God while losing Him in the process?

So beast!
God is so good!

Blessings

The Start

Going down winding roads
A little lost on the way
Forgot, you travel light
and grabbed bag day by day
Now you're in a rut
No tellin' neither from either
Trying to follow street lights
But stars shine so much brighter
Caught at the corner of Pain Lane
and on the side of Rue Broken Heart
A lonely stranger, quiet, quiet roaring eyes sing
Welcome back to the start
Where grace meets your road
Sea of forgetfulness ain't hard to find
Greetings from beginnings
Let me take your bags
Give you a place to rest
Warm the beat inside that hollowed drum
Replace shambled dreams with peace of mind
Welcome back to the start
Such a familiar phenomenon, burning bright
How'd you ignore the wilds of his firey love
With the likeness of a child
You say "You don't understand, I've been here before"
unspoken whispers "No matter, that's what grace is for"
No drying eyes. How can words be so clear
Perfect spoken silence brings broken to an art
Welcome back to the start
Let love meet your road
And the ease of Me is nothing hard to find
Greeting from Beginnings
There's a change of plans
I'll warm the beat inside that hollowed drum
Replace crying out with crying out for Me
Welcome Back to the
You can take in all of me
Leave nothing of you behind, Dance for me
A forever beat, enter Psalm 23
Leave nothing of you behind, Sing for me
All I require is your heart
Leave nothing of you behind, Grow for me
Condition at arrival is my part
Leave nothing of you behind, Breathe for me
Life- breathe for me
Joy- breathe for me
Fullness- breathe for me
Breathe me in
Love- breathe for me
Peace- breathe for me
Goodness- breathe for me
Take. Me. In.
Welcome back to the start
Where my love meets your life
My beat to your heart's not hard to find
Welcome back to the start

Creation's Pains. Say what?

Ok...so...  You know how Romans 8: 22 says " For we know that all creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time". I've read it but it was just kind of like...HELLO!!!!!
Further down in verse 28 it says "And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them"....which I have read, and recited, and sang 100x over(You make all things work together for my good)!  Yes all of a sudden, it became the most literal, concrete statement to me. (Which it already is...but I'll explain).

I did a Bible study the night before and we were on the subject of how you are meant for something. Basically, you have a destiny and a purpose and desires. God created you with those things. 

Think about when you desire or want something so bad. I'll break it down to a person.  Say you have an amazing relationship with someone, be it family or whoever, and you haven't seen them in a while. You start to miss them. Your heart becomes so weighted by the desire to see them. It's almost like there's a tugging in your heart saying I just miss them so much I have to see them.

Now, flip it to the other side. The other person is missing you just as bad as you are missing them. Because you have that strong relationship, this person has become a part of you.

Now...let's do the math! Putting these 2 together.  Because of your strong relationship with God, you've built these desires for His purpose in you. Those desires are so strong that it is a part of you because of that relationship. It's your heart beat and just as bad as you want, it also wants you. It misses you because it is a part of you. Just as bad as you want to get to your point B, it is being pulled your way (through prayer and the building of your relationship). So ALL of creation (EVERYTHING) is working, and laboring, and pushing to birth you into your destiny/purpose/calling. All things are literally working for your good! All creation is trying to deliver you to the very thing that God created to be a part of you, for you to do. 

Just a thought and encouragement so that you know that when you're so tired of being at point A and knowing point B but not how to get there. Be patient because God has all of creation working to push you into your placement and every time you pray and speak it, you pull closer to you, what is already missing you!
Awesome Sauce! God is so great!!!

Unrelenting

Forever love so unrelenting
Merciful and True
You cover me in your grace
as my life is tangled up in you
Your ocean of life surrounding me
The power of your flow
A pure blood covering
And arms that never let go
Never was there a love like this
Such passion and so deep
Consuming me in glorious waves, Where I'm lost
And within the same, made free
As a rushing wind so mightily blows, your voice whispers to my heart
"It is no secret where you can find me" I feel you. Where I go, there you are.
You are the love that's captured me
And made me a new creature, never the same.
I've been broken, molded, and now can't fit
Into any old mold or frame.
Declared a daughter, in Your matchless Name

Angele

Dancing With God
When I meditated on the word Guidance, I kept seeing "dance" at the end of the word. I remember reading that doing God's will is a lot like dancing. When two people try to lead, nothing feels right. The movement doesn't flow with the music, and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky. When one person realizes that and lets the other lead, both bodies begin to flow with the music. One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back or by pressing lightly in one direction or another. It's as if two become one body, moving beautifully. The dance takes surrender, willingness, and attentiveness from one person and gentle guidance and skill from the other. My eyes drew back to the word Guidance.
When I saw "Guidance: I thought… "God, "u" and "i" "dance." As I lowered my head I once again became willing to trust that I would get guidance about my life. Once again, I was eager to let God lead.
My prayer for you today is that God's blessings and mercies are upon you on this day and everyday. May you abide in God as God abides in you? Dance together with God, trusting God to lead and to guide you through each season of your life. This prayer is powerful and there is nothing attached.
If God has done anything for you in your life, please share this message with someone else, for prayer is one of the best gifts we can receive. There is no cost but lots of rewards; so let's continue to pray for one another. And I Hope You Dance!!!!!!!!

The Esthers

I've been endlessly having the upcoming event, The Esther Call in Dallas, TX with Lou Engle in mind. For years, God had given me these motherly qualities, which I thought were  normal for a girl...especially one who loves children and has worked with youth for years! I went to the Jesus Culture Awakening Conference with my pastor, other staff, ministers, and friends and it was my first time hearing Cindy Jacobs. It was my first time feeling a connection and some sense to this whole "mother" thing. 


 After time in prayer God told me it was a special anointing, which is also why I've been able to "have a way" with young girls. One Monday night, at my church's soaking prayer service, my pastor called me out and said that God pressed upon him to pray a Mordecai anointing over me. Within the time of him and other elders and staff of the church praying over me, God was sort of "downloading" meaning into me. He had put me in positions that he has to be able to raise up Esthers. WOW! What a responsibility! 
My pastors wife, who is like another mom to me, was a calming voice and a lead to sort alot of things out with that and stayed with me praying and continued to help me understand. From that moment, I have prayed for the Esthers in and out of my reach to rise up! These children of God will be what changes mindsets, cultures, and even nations. So to the Esthers:

Rise up and take your places! Shake the nations! Trees bow and mountains crumble at the glory of God within you. You have been appointed by the Lord most high! You are to go into places no one else can or will go. Principalities will be striped from their self declared thrones and the grips of strongholds will be  broken. Walk the steps set before you and don't be afraid to follow them. It is a set up. You've been set up by God! =) He walks with you. Your prayers will shake this world You are the breath between God's

Yea and His Amen.